These were two prompts in the #Reverb10 campaign I was going to let go, but as I was finishing the other prompts, they became things I wanted to talk about so here are some quick thoughts!
December 4 – Wonder. How did you cultivate a sense of wonder in your life this year? (Author: Jeffrey Davis)
December 27 – Ordinary Joy. Our most profound joy is often experienced during ordinary moments. What was one of your most joyful ordinary moments this year? (Author: Brené Brown)
I most often discovered wonder in 2010 by finding myself in situations that made me question my entire being. It sounds scary, but it was also welcoming because I suddenly felt like my eyes were open when they’d long been closed. Here are two times that stand out to me.
1. Spending time with my best childhood friend Laura’s kids this October. I’ve been tentative around other people’s kids in the last few years because they made me self-conscious. I’ve been unsure about my desire to have kids and I feel pressure at my age to know. Plus, I am afraid of breaking them.
Not only did I not break James and Lily, but I fell in love. Next time you see me, ask me to act like a proud aunt and show you a picture of them in their NYC J and L train subway t-shirts. Spending time with her kids made me realize that I really do want to be a mom, and not just a mom of a new business. It’s a wonder because I am not sure what happens next, but I’m eager and happy to explore it.
2. Discovering Buddhist meditation in the last few months has also been a wonder for me. For the first time in my life, I’ve really discovered a way to change my thoughts. This possibility is a wonder for me and I am ready to learn and practice more in 2011 and see where it fits with the other spiritual parts of my life.
My ordinary joys are moments so small, but so peaceful that they made me pause so I could remember them and feel them again.
1. Living close enough to Cobble Hill Park to go there on any summer or spring weekend and sit with my laptop while enjoying Ted & Honey’s #1 Breakfast sandwich, a Red Eye, and their wireless internet that extends to the park. It’s like my personal outside office.
(Photo of Cobble Hill Park courtesy of j_bary, flickr)
2. Grinding my own beans every morning to make coffee in my French Press. I bought a coffee grinder with the earnings from my first sale. I love the ritual and smell every morning of grinding fresh beans and making my coffee before I start writing and checking emails.
3. Walking on the beach for an hour on a weekend at the shared beach house on Fire Island just collecting shells and thinking about nothing else but how they’re all unique and how they feel in my hand. I keep them in a jar in my apartment so I always feel close to the Atlantic, a place that seems to give me incredible energy.
Big and unwieldy, small and simple. All important to my life.