Reverb12 Prompt1: The Pros and Cons of Being Present

It’s time for Reverb12! While I don’t get to blog as much anymore as I manage my business growth, I must make an exception for Reverb.

Reverb happens every December when bloggers reflect on the year that has passed and start to manifest their dreams for the new year. If you’ve been around since the start of my journey into self-employment and small business ownership, you may have read my entries for Reverb10. My job is to help people reach their goals and maximize their personal and professional development. Not all coaches or “experts” agree, but I believe I’d be remiss if I didn’t share my own challenges and triumphs from my experiments with pursuing my own dreams.

I missed Reverb11 because I was in the midst of moving myself 900 miles from New York City to Savannah, GA, last December. Inspiration to move first came to me through the understandings about myself and my goals that I gained through Reverb10.

I can literally confirm that participating in Reverb changed my entire life.

If you want to sign up for Reverb yourself, you can sign up here to get the prompts. Also follow the hashtag #reverb12 on Twitter to read what other people are discovering.

So here we start with Prompt 1 of 31.

Reverb12 has me present.

Prompt 1:

How are you starting this last month of 2012?

Take a moment, close your eyes, take a deep breath and ask yourself the question: how do you feel…

… in your body? in your mind? in your day job? in your creative life? in your heart?

One of my favorite songs in the world is As Is by Ani DiFranco and today I found myself singing one the lyrics at the top of my lungs: “…cause when I look down, I just miss all the good stuff. When I look up, I just trip over things.”

I feel that way and that is why I am starting December present in my life.

2012 has been a year of personal growth and change that started with relocating to Savannah on January 2nd after 15 years as a neurotic, overstretched and dissatisfied New Yorker. Today, December 2nd, I took a road trip to Tybee Island in the first car I have ever owned with my boyfriend who I met this summer, and a friend I met in an entrepreneurship incubator who happened to find herself in this corner of the country. I stood at the edge of the water in my sundress on a 76 degree day in December and breathed in deep and thought of the person I was three years ago. I wondered what her reaction would be to me right now.

Honestly? Probably “Who the f*ck are you?”

I have decided I am okay with that.

Enjoying the beach as part of Reverb

Being present also gives you a chance to recognize what’s NOT working in your life. That would be my health. Since August, I have not felt in control of my body- it has been throwing me unexpected and unwelcome surprises. Some of what I feel is a physical cost of having reached what I wanted in my professional life so quickly, some of it is my denial of changes that come with age, and some of it is “just because.” I don’t have any immediate solutions, but I know that this is something I need to focus on in 2013.

I am enjoying my present because I set big audacious goals for myself in 2010 and I met almost all of them. Enjoying my present so much has made it difficult to figure out what other big and audacious goals I want to pursue in 2013 beyond more of the same. “The same” is a temporary place and I can’t wait for the Reverb12 to steer me in the right direction.

  • noelrozny

    Tracy, it is fantastic to see you reverbing and to read your lovely words again. This post rang so true to me, especially this: “Inspiration to move first came to me through the understandings about myself and my goals that I gained through Reverb10.” I tell people ALL the time that reverb changed my life, and it’s good to know someone else feels the same. (Sometimes I feel like people think – “A blog changed your life? Really” Amazing the power words can have!)

    I celebrate all of the successes you’ve found as a result of taking some risks and listening to your heart (and wish you the healing your body needs in the new year.) I’m starring this post for days when I need a little inspiration! :)

    • Thanks, Noel! I know that we met through the Twitter career chats, but I always think of you as my Reverb buddy!

      I have been reading your posts and I love your creative take. I am also delving into the #cultivate12 prompts this week, too. Can’t wait to read more from you!